第46章 Chapter Four(3)

　　He opened the door of his lock-up and called to a lounging couple of Delta-Minus attendants to come and push his machine out on to the roof. The hangars were staffed by a single Bokanovsky Group， and the men were twins， identically small， black and hideous. Bernard gave his orders in the sharp， rather arrogant and even offensive tone of one who does not feel himself too secure in his superiority. To have dealings with members of the lower castes was always， for Bernard， a most distressing experience. For whatever the cause （and the current gossip about the alcohol in his blood-surrogate may very likely–for accidents will happen–have been true） Bernard’s physique as hardly better than that of the average Gamma. He stood eight centimetres short of the standard Alpha height and was slender in proportion. Contact with members of he lower castes always reminded him painfully of this physical inadequacy. “I am I， and wish I wasn’t”； his self-consciousness was acute and stressing. Each time he found himself looking on the level， instead of downward， into a Delta’s face， he felt humiliated. Would the creature treat him with the respect due to his caste？ The question haunted him. Not without reason. For Gammas， Deltas and Epsilons had been to some extent conditioned to associate corporeal mass with social superiority. Indeed， a faint hypnop？dic prejudice in favour of size was universal. Hence the laughter of the women to whom he made proposals， the practical joking of his equals among the men. The mockery made him feel an outsider； and feeling an outsider he behaved like one， which increased the prejudice against him and intensified the contempt and hostility aroused by his physical defects. Which in turn increased his sense of being alien and alone. A chronic fear of being slighted made him avoid his equals， made him stand， where his inferiors were concerned， self-consciously on his dignity. How bitterly he envied men like Henry Foster and Benito Hoover！ Men who never had to shout at an Epsilon to get an order obeyed； men who took their position for granted； men who moved through the caste system as a fish through water–so utterly at home as to be unaware either of themselves or of the beneficent and comfortable element in which they had their being.

　　Slackly， it seemed to him， and with reluctance， the twin attendants wheeled his plane out on the roof.

　　“Hurry up！” said Bernard irritably. One of them glanced at him. Was that a kind of bestial derision that he detected in those blank grey eyes？ “Hurry up！” he shouted more loudly， and there was an ugly rasp in his voice.

　　He climbed into the plane and， a minute later， was flying southwards， towards the river.

　　The various Bureaux of Propaganda and the College of Emotional Engineering were housed in a single sixty-story building in Fleet Street. In the basement and on the low floors were the presses and offices of the three great Lodon newspapers–The Hourly Radio， an upper-caste sheet， the pale green Gamma Gazette， and， on khaki paper and in words exclusively of one syllable， The Delta Mirror. Then came the Bureaux of Propaganda by Television， by Feeling Picture， and by Synthetic Voice and Music respectively–twenty-two floors of them. Above were the search laboratories and the padded rooms in which Sound-Track Writers and Synthetic Composers did the delicate work. The top eighteen floors were occupied the College of Emotional Engineering.

　　Bernard landed on the roof of Propaganda House and stepped out.

　　“Ring down to Mr. Helmholtz Watson，” he ordered the Gamma-Plus porter， “and tell him that Mr. Bernard Marx is waiting for him on the roof.”

　　He sat down and lit a cigarette.

　　Helmholtz Watson was writing when the message came down.

　　“Tell him I’m coming at once，” he said and hung up the receiver. Then， turning to his secretary， “I’ll leave you to put my things away，” he went on in the same official and impersonal tone； and， ignoring her lustrous smile， got up and walked briskly to the door.

　　He was a powerfully built man， deep-chested， broad-shouldered， massive， and yet quick in his movements， springy and agile. The round strong pillar of his neck supported a beautifully shaped head. His hair was dark and curly， his features strongly marked. In a forcible emphatic way， he was handsome and looked， as his secretety was never tired of repeating， every centimetre an Alpha Plus. By profession he was a lecturer at the College of Emotional Engineering （Department of Writing） and the intervals of his educational activities， a working Emotional Engineer. He wrote regularly for The Hourly Radio， composed feely scenarios， and had the happiest knack for slogans and hypnop？dic rhymes.

　　“Able，” was the verdict of his superiors. “Perhaps， （and they would shake their heads， would significantly lower their voices） a little too able.”