《永别了武器英文版》 作者：海明威
BOOK FIVE CHAPTER 41 Page 2
"it's a caesarean," one said. "they're going to do a caesarean."
the other one laughed, "we're just in time. aren't we lucky?" they went in the door that led to the gallery.
another nurse came along. she was hurrying too.
"you go right in there. go right in," she said.
"i'm staying outside."
she hurried in. i walked up and down the hall. i was afraid to go in. i looked out the window. it was dark but in the light from the window i could see it was raining. i went into a room at the far end of the hall and looked at the labels on bottles in a glass case. then i came out and stood in the empty hall and watched the door of the operating room.
a doctor came out followed by a nurse. he held something in his two hands that looked like a freshly skinned rabbit and hurried across the corridor with it and in through another door. i went down to the door he had gone into and found them in the room doing things to a new-born child. the doctor held him up for me to see. he held him by the heels and slapped him.
"is he all right?"
"he's magnificent. he'll weigh five kilos."
i had no feeling for him. he did not seem to have anything to do with me. i felt no feeling of fatherhood.
"aren't you proud of your son?" the nurse asked. they were washing him and wrapping him in something. i saw the little dark face and dark hand, but i did not see him move or hear him cry. the doctor was doing something to him again. he looked upset.
"no," i said. "he nearly killed his mother."
"it isn't the little darling's fault. didn't you want a boy?"
"no," i said. the doctor was busy with him. he held him up by the feet and slapped him. i did not wait to see it. i went out in the hail. i could go in now and see. i went in the door and a little way down the gallery. the nurses who were sitting at the rail motioned for me to come down where they were. i shook my head. i could see enough where i was.
i thought catherine was dead. she looked dead. her face was gray, the part of it that i could see. down below, under the light, the doctor was sewing up the great long, forcep-spread, thickedged, wound. another doctor in a mask gave the anaesthetic. two nurses in masks handed things. it looked like a drawing of the inquisition. i knew as i watched i could have watched it all, but i was glad i hadn't. i do not think i could have watched them cut, but i watched the wound closed into a high welted ridge with quick skilful-looking stitches like a cobbler's, and was glad. when the wound was closed i went out into the hall and walked up and down again. after a while the doctor came out.
"how is she?"
"she is all right. did you watch?"
he looked tired.
"i saw you sew up. the incision looked very long."
"you thought so?"
"yes. will that scar flatten out?"
"oh, yes."
after a while they brought out the wheeled stretcher and took it very rapidly down the hallway to the elevator. i went along beside it. catherine was moaning. downstairs they put her in the bed in her room. i sat in a chair at the foot of the bed. there was a nurse in the room. i got up and stood by the bed. it was dark in the room. catherine put out her hand. "hello, darling," she said. her voice was very weak and tired.
"hello, you sweet."
"what sort of baby was it?"
"sh--don't talk," the nurse said.
"a boy. he's long and wide and dark."
"is he all right?"
"yes," i said. "he's fine."
i saw the nurse look at me strangely.
"i'm awfully tired," catherine said. "and i hurt like hell. are you all right, darling?"
"i'm fine. don't talk."
"you were lovely to me. oh, darling, i hurt dreadfully. what does he look like?"
"he looks like a skinned rabbit with a puckered-up old-man's face."
"you must go out," the nurse said. "madame henry must not talk."
"i'll be outside."
"go and get something to eat."
"no. i'll be outside." i kissed catherine. she was very gray and weak and tired.
"may i speak to you?" i said to the nurse. she came out in the hall with me. i walked a little way down the hall.
"what's the matter with the baby?" i asked.
"didn't you know?"
"no."
"he wasn't alive."
"he was dead?"
"they couldn't start him breathing. the cord was caught around his neck or something."
"so he's dead."
"yes. it's such a shame. he was such a fine big boy. i thought you knew."
"no," i said. "you better go back in with madame."
i sat down on the chair in front of a table where there were nurses' reports hung on clips at the side and looked out of the window. i could see nothing but the dark and the rain falling across the light from the window. so that was it. the baby was dead. that was why the doctor looked so tired. but why had they acted the way they did in the room with him? they supposed he would come around and start breathing probably. i had no religion but i knew he ought to have been baptized. but what if he never breathed at all. he hadn't. he had never been alive. except in catherine. i'd felt him kick there often enough. but i hadn't for a week. maybe he was choked all the time. poor little kid. i wished the hell i'd been choked like that. no i didn't. still there would not be all this dying to go through. now catherine would die. that was what you did. you died. you did not know what it was about. you never had time to learn. they threw you in and told you the rules and the first time they caught you off base they killed you. or they killed you gratuitously like aymo. or gave you the syphilis like rinaldi. but they killed you in the end. you could count on that. stay around and they would kill you.
once in camp i put a log on top of the fire and it was full of ants. as it commenced to burn, the ants swarmed out and went first toward the centre where the fire was; then turned back and ran toward the end. when there were enough on the end they fell off into the fire. some got out, their bodies burnt and flattened, and went off not knowing where they were going. but most of them went toward the fire and then back toward the end and swarmed on the cool end and finally fell off into the fire. i remember thinking at the time that it was the end of the world and a splendid chance to be a messiah and lift the log off the fire and throw it out where the ants could get off onto the ground. but i did not do anything but throw a tin cup of water on the log, so that i would have the cup empty to put whiskey in before i added water to it. i think the cup of water on the burning log only steamed the ants.
so now i sat out in the hall and waited to hear how catherine was. the nurse did not come out, so after a while i went to the door and opened it very softly and looked in. i could not see at first because there was a bright light in the hall and it was dark in the room. then i saw the nurse sitting by the bed and catherine's head on a pillow, and she was all flat under the sheet. the nurse put her finger to her lips, then stood up and came to the door.
"how is she?" i asked.
"she's all right," the nurse said. "you should go and have your supper and then come back if you wish."
i went down the hall and then down the stairs and out the door of the hospital and down the dark street in the rain to the caf? it was brightly lighted inside and there were many people at the tables. i did not see a place to sit, and a waiter came up to me and took my wet coat and hat and showed me a place at a table across from an elderly man who was drinking beer and reading the evening paper. i sat down and asked the waiter what the plat du jour was.
"veal stew--but it is finished."
"what can i have to eat?"
"ham and eggs, eggs with cheese, or choucroute."
"i had choucroute this noon," i said.
"that's true," he said. "that's true. you ate choucroute this noon." he was a middle-aged man with a bald top to his head and his hair slicked over it. he had a kind face.
"what do you want? ham and eggs or eggs with cheese?"
"ham and eggs," i said, "and beer."
"a demi-blonde?"
"yes," i said.
"i remembered," he said. "you took a demi-blonde this noon."
i ate the ham and eggs and drank the beer. the ham and eggs were in a round dish--the ham underneath and the eggs on top. it was very hot and at the first mouthful i had to take a drink of beer to cool my mouth. i was hungry and i asked the waiter for another order. i drank several glasses of beer. i was not thinking at all but read the paper of the man opposite me. it was about the break through on the british front. when he realized i was reading the back of his paper he folded it over. i thought of asking the waiter for a paper, but i could not concentrate. it was hot in the caf?and the air was bad. many of the people at the tables knew one another. there were several card games going on. the waiters were busy bringing drinks from the bar to the tables. two men came in and could find no place to sit. they stood opposite the table where i was. i ordered another beer. i was not ready to leave yet. it was too soon to go back to the hospital. i tried not to think and to be perfectly calm. the men stood around but no one was leaving, so they went out. i drank another beer. there was quite a pile of saucers now on the table in front of me. the man opposite me had taken off his spectacles, put them away in a case, folded his paper and put it in his pocket and now sat holding his liqueur glass and looking out at the room. suddenly i knew i had to get back. i called the waiter, paid the reckoning, got into my coat, put on my hat and started out the door. i walked through the rain up to the hospital.
upstairs i met the nurse coming down the hall.
"i just called you at the hotel," she said. something dropped inside me.
"what is wrong?"
"mrs. henry has had a hemorrhage."
"can i go in?"
"no, not yet. the doctor is with her."
"is it dangerous?"
"it is very dangerous." the nurse went into the room and shut the door. i sat outside in the hail. everything was gone inside of me. i did not think. i could not think. i knew she was going to die and i prayed that she would not. don't let her die. oh, god, please don't let her die. i'll do anything for you if you won't let her die. please, please, please, dear god, don't let her die. dear god, don't let her die. please, please, please don't let her die. god please make her not die. i'll do anything you say if you don't let her die. you took the baby but don't let her die. that was all right but don't let her die. please, please, dear god, don't let her die.
the nurse opened the door and motioned with her finger for me to come. i followed her into the room. catherine did not look up when i came in. i went over to the side of the bed. the doctor was standing by the bed on the opposite side. catherine looked at me and smiled. i bent down over the bed and started to cry.
"poor darling," catherine said very softly. she looked gray.
"you're all right, cat," i said. "you're going to be all right."
"i'm going to die," she said; then waited and said, "i hate it."
i took her hand.
"don't touch me," she said. i let go of her hand. she smiled. "poor darling. you touch me all you want."
"you'll be all right, cat. i know you'll be all right."
"i meant to write you a letter to have if anything happened, but i didn't do it."
"do you want me to get a priest or any one to come and see you?"
"just you," she said. then a little later, "i'm not afraid. i just hate it."
"you must not talk so much," the doctor said.
"all right," catherine said.
"do you want me to do anything, cat? can i get you anything?"
catherine smiled, "no." then a little later, "you won't do our things with another girl, or say the same things, will you?"
"never."
"i want you to have girls, though."
"i don't want them."
"you are talking too much," the doctor said. "mr. henry must go out. he can come back again later. you are not going to die. you must not be silly."
"all right," catherine said. "i'll come and stay with you nights," she said. it was very hard for her to talk.
"please go out of the room," the doctor said. "you cannot talk." catherine winked at me, her face gray. "i'll be right outside," i said.
"don't worry, darling," catherine said. "i'm not a bit afraid. it's just a dirty trick."
"you dear, brave sweet."
i waited outside in the hall. i waited a long time. the nurse came to the door and came over to me. "i'm afraid mrs. henry is very ill," she said. "i'm afraid for her."
"is she dead?"
"no, but she is unconscious."
it seems she had one hemorrhage after another. they couldn't stop it. i went into the room and stayed with catherine until she died. she was unconscious all the time, and it did not take her very long to die.
outside the room, in the hall, i spoke to the doctor, "is there anything i can do to-night?"
"no. there is nothing to do. can i take you to your hotel?"
"no, thank you. i am going to stay here a while."
"i know there is nothing to say. i cannot tell you--"
"no," i said. "there's nothing to say."
"good-night," he said. "i cannot take you to your hotel?"
"no, thank you."
"it was the only thing to do," he said. "the operation proved--"
"i do not want to talk about it," i said.
"i would like to take you to your hotel."
"no, thank you."
he went down the hall. i went to the door of the room.
"you can't come in now," one of the nurses said.
"yes i can," i said.
"you can't come in yet."
"you get out," i said. "the other one too."
but after i had got them out and shut the door and turned off the light it wasn't any good. it was like saying good-by to a statue. after a while i went out and left the hospital and walked back to the hotel in the rain.
the end
丧钟为谁而鸣老人与海海明威文集世界上最动人的书信尼克·亚当斯故事集世界之都永别了武器英文版弗朗西斯·麦康伯短促的幸福生活那片陌生的天地海明威短篇小说：尼克·亚当斯故事集一篇有关死者的博物学论著太阳照常升起海明威短篇小说集永别了，武器大双心河the other one laughed, "we're just in time. aren't we lucky?" they went in the door that led to the gallery.
another nurse came along. she was hurrying too.
"you go right in there. go right in," she said.
"i'm staying outside."
she hurried in. i walked up and down the hall. i was afraid to go in. i looked out the window. it was dark but in the light from the window i could see it was raining. i went into a room at the far end of the hall and looked at the labels on bottles in a glass case. then i came out and stood in the empty hall and watched the door of the operating room.
a doctor came out followed by a nurse. he held something in his two hands that looked like a freshly skinned rabbit and hurried across the corridor with it and in through another door. i went down to the door he had gone into and found them in the room doing things to a new-born child. the doctor held him up for me to see. he held him by the heels and slapped him.
"is he all right?"
"he's magnificent. he'll weigh five kilos."
i had no feeling for him. he did not seem to have anything to do with me. i felt no feeling of fatherhood.
"aren't you proud of your son?" the nurse asked. they were washing him and wrapping him in something. i saw the little dark face and dark hand, but i did not see him move or hear him cry. the doctor was doing something to him again. he looked upset.
"no," i said. "he nearly killed his mother."
"it isn't the little darling's fault. didn't you want a boy?"
"no," i said. the doctor was busy with him. he held him up by the feet and slapped him. i did not wait to see it. i went out in the hail. i could go in now and see. i went in the door and a little way down the gallery. the nurses who were sitting at the rail motioned for me to come down where they were. i shook my head. i could see enough where i was.
i thought catherine was dead. she looked dead. her face was gray, the part of it that i could see. down below, under the light, the doctor was sewing up the great long, forcep-spread, thickedged, wound. another doctor in a mask gave the anaesthetic. two nurses in masks handed things. it looked like a drawing of the inquisition. i knew as i watched i could have watched it all, but i was glad i hadn't. i do not think i could have watched them cut, but i watched the wound closed into a high welted ridge with quick skilful-looking stitches like a cobbler's, and was glad. when the wound was closed i went out into the hall and walked up and down again. after a while the doctor came out.
"how is she?"
"she is all right. did you watch?"
he looked tired.
"i saw you sew up. the incision looked very long."
"you thought so?"
"yes. will that scar flatten out?"
"oh, yes."
after a while they brought out the wheeled stretcher and took it very rapidly down the hallway to the elevator. i went along beside it. catherine was moaning. downstairs they put her in the bed in her room. i sat in a chair at the foot of the bed. there was a nurse in the room. i got up and stood by the bed. it was dark in the room. catherine put out her hand. "hello, darling," she said. her voice was very weak and tired.
"hello, you sweet."
"what sort of baby was it?"
"sh--don't talk," the nurse said.
"a boy. he's long and wide and dark."
"is he all right?"
"yes," i said. "he's fine."
i saw the nurse look at me strangely.
"i'm awfully tired," catherine said. "and i hurt like hell. are you all right, darling?"
"i'm fine. don't talk."
"you were lovely to me. oh, darling, i hurt dreadfully. what does he look like?"
"he looks like a skinned rabbit with a puckered-up old-man's face."
"you must go out," the nurse said. "madame henry must not talk."
"i'll be outside."
"go and get something to eat."
"no. i'll be outside." i kissed catherine. she was very gray and weak and tired.
"may i speak to you?" i said to the nurse. she came out in the hall with me. i walked a little way down the hall.
"what's the matter with the baby?" i asked.
"didn't you know?"
"no."
"he wasn't alive."
"he was dead?"
"they couldn't start him breathing. the cord was caught around his neck or something."
"so he's dead."
"yes. it's such a shame. he was such a fine big boy. i thought you knew."
"no," i said. "you better go back in with madame."
i sat down on the chair in front of a table where there were nurses' reports hung on clips at the side and looked out of the window. i could see nothing but the dark and the rain falling across the light from the window. so that was it. the baby was dead. that was why the doctor looked so tired. but why had they acted the way they did in the room with him? they supposed he would come around and start breathing probably. i had no religion but i knew he ought to have been baptized. but what if he never breathed at all. he hadn't. he had never been alive. except in catherine. i'd felt him kick there often enough. but i hadn't for a week. maybe he was choked all the time. poor little kid. i wished the hell i'd been choked like that. no i didn't. still there would not be all this dying to go through. now catherine would die. that was what you did. you died. you did not know what it was about. you never had time to learn. they threw you in and told you the rules and the first time they caught you off base they killed you. or they killed you gratuitously like aymo. or gave you the syphilis like rinaldi. but they killed you in the end. you could count on that. stay around and they would kill you.
once in camp i put a log on top of the fire and it was full of ants. as it commenced to burn, the ants swarmed out and went first toward the centre where the fire was; then turned back and ran toward the end. when there were enough on the end they fell off into the fire. some got out, their bodies burnt and flattened, and went off not knowing where they were going. but most of them went toward the fire and then back toward the end and swarmed on the cool end and finally fell off into the fire. i remember thinking at the time that it was the end of the world and a splendid chance to be a messiah and lift the log off the fire and throw it out where the ants could get off onto the ground. but i did not do anything but throw a tin cup of water on the log, so that i would have the cup empty to put whiskey in before i added water to it. i think the cup of water on the burning log only steamed the ants.
so now i sat out in the hall and waited to hear how catherine was. the nurse did not come out, so after a while i went to the door and opened it very softly and looked in. i could not see at first because there was a bright light in the hall and it was dark in the room. then i saw the nurse sitting by the bed and catherine's head on a pillow, and she was all flat under the sheet. the nurse put her finger to her lips, then stood up and came to the door.
"how is she?" i asked.
"she's all right," the nurse said. "you should go and have your supper and then come back if you wish."
i went down the hall and then down the stairs and out the door of the hospital and down the dark street in the rain to the caf? it was brightly lighted inside and there were many people at the tables. i did not see a place to sit, and a waiter came up to me and took my wet coat and hat and showed me a place at a table across from an elderly man who was drinking beer and reading the evening paper. i sat down and asked the waiter what the plat du jour was.
"veal stew--but it is finished."
"what can i have to eat?"
"ham and eggs, eggs with cheese, or choucroute."
"i had choucroute this noon," i said.
"that's true," he said. "that's true. you ate choucroute this noon." he was a middle-aged man with a bald top to his head and his hair slicked over it. he had a kind face.
"what do you want? ham and eggs or eggs with cheese?"
"ham and eggs," i said, "and beer."
"a demi-blonde?"
"yes," i said.
"i remembered," he said. "you took a demi-blonde this noon."
i ate the ham and eggs and drank the beer. the ham and eggs were in a round dish--the ham underneath and the eggs on top. it was very hot and at the first mouthful i had to take a drink of beer to cool my mouth. i was hungry and i asked the waiter for another order. i drank several glasses of beer. i was not thinking at all but read the paper of the man opposite me. it was about the break through on the british front. when he realized i was reading the back of his paper he folded it over. i thought of asking the waiter for a paper, but i could not concentrate. it was hot in the caf?and the air was bad. many of the people at the tables knew one another. there were several card games going on. the waiters were busy bringing drinks from the bar to the tables. two men came in and could find no place to sit. they stood opposite the table where i was. i ordered another beer. i was not ready to leave yet. it was too soon to go back to the hospital. i tried not to think and to be perfectly calm. the men stood around but no one was leaving, so they went out. i drank another beer. there was quite a pile of saucers now on the table in front of me. the man opposite me had taken off his spectacles, put them away in a case, folded his paper and put it in his pocket and now sat holding his liqueur glass and looking out at the room. suddenly i knew i had to get back. i called the waiter, paid the reckoning, got into my coat, put on my hat and started out the door. i walked through the rain up to the hospital.
upstairs i met the nurse coming down the hall.
"i just called you at the hotel," she said. something dropped inside me.
"what is wrong?"
"mrs. henry has had a hemorrhage."
"can i go in?"
"no, not yet. the doctor is with her."
"is it dangerous?"
"it is very dangerous." the nurse went into the room and shut the door. i sat outside in the hail. everything was gone inside of me. i did not think. i could not think. i knew she was going to die and i prayed that she would not. don't let her die. oh, god, please don't let her die. i'll do anything for you if you won't let her die. please, please, please, dear god, don't let her die. dear god, don't let her die. please, please, please don't let her die. god please make her not die. i'll do anything you say if you don't let her die. you took the baby but don't let her die. that was all right but don't let her die. please, please, dear god, don't let her die.
the nurse opened the door and motioned with her finger for me to come. i followed her into the room. catherine did not look up when i came in. i went over to the side of the bed. the doctor was standing by the bed on the opposite side. catherine looked at me and smiled. i bent down over the bed and started to cry.
"poor darling," catherine said very softly. she looked gray.
"you're all right, cat," i said. "you're going to be all right."
"i'm going to die," she said; then waited and said, "i hate it."
i took her hand.
"don't touch me," she said. i let go of her hand. she smiled. "poor darling. you touch me all you want."
"you'll be all right, cat. i know you'll be all right."
"i meant to write you a letter to have if anything happened, but i didn't do it."
"do you want me to get a priest or any one to come and see you?"
"just you," she said. then a little later, "i'm not afraid. i just hate it."
"you must not talk so much," the doctor said.
"all right," catherine said.
"do you want me to do anything, cat? can i get you anything?"
catherine smiled, "no." then a little later, "you won't do our things with another girl, or say the same things, will you?"
"never."
"i want you to have girls, though."
"i don't want them."
"you are talking too much," the doctor said. "mr. henry must go out. he can come back again later. you are not going to die. you must not be silly."
"all right," catherine said. "i'll come and stay with you nights," she said. it was very hard for her to talk.
"please go out of the room," the doctor said. "you cannot talk." catherine winked at me, her face gray. "i'll be right outside," i said.
"don't worry, darling," catherine said. "i'm not a bit afraid. it's just a dirty trick."
"you dear, brave sweet."
i waited outside in the hall. i waited a long time. the nurse came to the door and came over to me. "i'm afraid mrs. henry is very ill," she said. "i'm afraid for her."
"is she dead?"
"no, but she is unconscious."
it seems she had one hemorrhage after another. they couldn't stop it. i went into the room and stayed with catherine until she died. she was unconscious all the time, and it did not take her very long to die.
outside the room, in the hall, i spoke to the doctor, "is there anything i can do to-night?"
"no. there is nothing to do. can i take you to your hotel?"
"no, thank you. i am going to stay here a while."
"i know there is nothing to say. i cannot tell you--"
"no," i said. "there's nothing to say."
"good-night," he said. "i cannot take you to your hotel?"
"no, thank you."
"it was the only thing to do," he said. "the operation proved--"
"i do not want to talk about it," i said.
"i would like to take you to your hotel."
"no, thank you."
he went down the hall. i went to the door of the room.
"you can't come in now," one of the nurses said.
"yes i can," i said.
"you can't come in yet."
"you get out," i said. "the other one too."
but after i had got them out and shut the door and turned off the light it wasn't any good. it was like saying good-by to a statue. after a while i went out and left the hospital and walked back to the hotel in the rain.
the end